You say it’s due to trauma
What you really need is drama
Still you blame on me
Think it’s a disaster
Check your fucked up karma
Yet you blame it on me

You’re projecting all these qualities
You wish they were coming out of me
You’re projecting oh cant you see
You’re only waiting for the moment
Someone tells you you’re important
Yet it feels so unrewarding
To be mourning for anyone but

For yourself
The spaces in between
Scream for help
Illegitimately
Still you dwell
On feeling beautifully unique
In case you couldn’t tell
This isnt acted this is me

It was either all or not,
Digging trenches in your heart
To find the thing that you need
Between everything you’ve got,
Every single thought you thought
Wasn’t the thought that you need

You’re projecting all these qualities
You wish they were coming out of me
You’re projecting oh can’t you see
You’re only waiting for the moment
Someone tells you you’re important
Yet it feels so unrewarding
To be mourning for anyone but

For yourself
The spaces in between
Scream for help
Illegitimately
Still you dwell
On feeling beautifully unique
In case you couldn’t tell
This isnt acted this is me

We all see behind your mask
Of tearsalt freckled tender glass
We all see you would try anything So you don’t have to be
We all see behind your mask
Of tearsalt freckled tender glass
We all see you would try anything
So you don’t have to be

By yourself
The spaces in between
Scream for help
Illegitimately
Still you dwell
On feeling beautifully unique
In case you couldn’t tell
This isnt acted this is me

This isn’t acted this is me
This isn’t acted this is me
This isn’t acted this is me
This isn’t acted this is me

Sometimes a sillhouette of potency is left alone
Hypocrisy come smile at me right through my telephone
What’s left is prey for those above, the victims are to blame
Let loose the hate for all you love and scream
And scream

Like you’ll never be
What you forgot
You will have to see
Wether or not
You get through to me
Oh, guidance of mine
Take what you need when you want
leave me out broken to die
Better luck next time
Oh, guidance of mine

What once was known as chemistry now calls itself a crime
Crawl back into your undergrowth steal someone else’s wine
Shapes of cold won’t harmonize they rip apart your shame
Let lose the hate for all you love and scream
And scream
And scream
And scream

Like you’ll never be
What you forgot
You will have to see
Wether or not
You get through to me
Oh, guidance of mine
Take what you need when you want
Leave me out broken to die
Better luck next time
Better luck next time
Better luck next time, luck next time
I said, better luck next time
Oh, guidance of mine

Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever think?
Do you ever think of me?Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever wish for your
Life to somehow change?

Inbetween your one night stands
You got lost inside your past
I’ve been wanting to tell you

I hate the way you overdress
I hate the way you overreact
I hate the way you oversimplify
Your life to gain my trust
I hate the way it’s never enough
I hate the way you complicate love
I hate the way you keep
Talking ‘bout yourself when I didn’t ask

Ba-dam-dam-dam-dam

Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever think?
Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever wish for your
Life to somehow change?

You’re so fragile that you leech
All the joy from people’s dreams
I’ve been wanting to tell you

I hate the way you overdress
I hate the way you overreact
I hate the way you oversimplify
Your life to gain my trust
I hate the way it’s never enough
I hate the way you complicate love
I hate the way you keep
Talking ‘bout yourself when I didn’t ask

Ba-dam-dam-dam-dam

Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever think?
Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever blink?
Do you ever wish for your
Life to somehow change
Should you be wishing me away

Look at the top of my head
Look at my feet, oh what’s that?
Another brick on the shelf
Oh, what a mess
Look at these feelings I’ve trapped

I’m nauseous, I’m anxious, I’m kind of paranoid
I’m breathing, I’m seeming chronically annoyed
I’m partially bleeding, yet hardly destroyed
I’m four steps from three to gone

You want it, you need it
You cautiously exceed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
You hate it, you heed it
Insatiably you feed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling

In the end I’m a stat
On a peer review graph
Another birck on the shelf
Oh what a mess
Look at these feelings I’ve trapped

I’m nauseous, I’m anxious,
I’m kind of paranoid
I’m breathing, I’m seeming chronically annoyed
I’m partially bleeding, yet hardly destroyed
I’m four steps from three to gone

You want it, you need it
You cautiously exceed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
You hate it, you heed it
Insatiably you feed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling

You want it, you need it
You cautiously exceed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
You hate it, you heed it
Insatiably you feed it
The limits of pressure encased in your freedom
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling
The inverted brachistochrones to the ceiling

I can see you behind those eyes
Where your subconcious hides
Let me be you one last time
Let me feel what it’s like
I can feel you like a breeze of fresh air
Like a tamed monster
Like a bloodclot in my hair

I think I’ve seen you before
At least a couple thousand times
I think I felt this way before
What was yours now is mine
Our broken halves intertwined
And I can’t wait for this to end
The clown parade of all I’ve never had
A party filled with ghosts is going mad

I can’t see you, I start to rot
I block out my thoughts
Let me be you get your positive outlook
Between everything I’m not and won’t
I need you here with me
I can’t be taught to be
Free

I think I’ve seen you before
At least a couple thousand times
I think I’ve felt this way before
What was yours now is mine
Our broken halves intertwined
And I can’t wait for this to end
The clown parade of all I’ve never had
A party filled with ghosts is going mad

I think I’ve seen you before
At least a couple thousand times
I think I’ve felt this way before
What was yours now is mine
Our broken halves intertwined
And I can’t wait for this to end
The clown parade of all I’ve never had
A party filled with ghosts is going mad

Oh-o-oh
Your feelgood quotes are what made you blind
Oh-o-oh
You’d rather stay lost than be out of your mind

Flowers, bedframes, alcohol
A scent of lemon grass to you
To me they sting to the touch
Like a razorblade’s love
They form a phrase so beautiful
You think this world was made for you
The way you break your bones in two
Red grass where you stood preaching ‘bout how
You’d rather look not feel good

Oh-o-oh
Your feelgood quotes are what made you blind
Oh-o-oh
Turn the radio on feel the echoing vibes
Oh-o-oh
You’d rather stay lost than be out of your mind
Oh-o-oh
Don’t forget there’s a feelood qoute for everyone
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood quote for everyone

You’re living sex, drugs, lexapro
A shot of whiskey for the road
Perfume spills out motivational lines
If motivation still was true

Oh-o-oh
Your feelgood quotes are what made you blind
Oh-o-oh
Turn the radio on feel the echoing vibes
Oh-o-oh
You’d rather stay lost than be out of your mind
Oh-o-oh
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood qoute for everyone
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood quote for everyone

Oh-o-oh
Your feelgood quotes are what made you blind
Oh-o-oh
Turn the radio on feel the echoing vibes
Oh-o-oh
You’d rather stay lost than be out of your mind
Oh-o-oh
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood qoute for everyone
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood quote for everyone
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood qoute for everyone
Don’t forget there’s a feelgood quote for everyone

Darling dont you know, I dont know who I am
Have the faded polaroids started to darken again
You’re having gasoline for water
I say Theres nothing wrong
With being way too convoluted
To keep things in their norm

I can’t ignore the hateful delight
Of my inner demons as they come alive

I don’t care if you are wrong or right
Or whats on your mind
Stay the fuck out of my life
don’t you dare jeopardise
Have you seen the scene thats too obscene
to ever be played
I bet you felt a rush of endorphines
as they screamed for help

I can’t ignore the hateful dislike
Of my inner demons as they come alive
I can’t ignore the hatefuldelight
Of my inner demons as they come alive

I don’t believe in cryptic astrology
I don’t believe there would be anything left for me
I don’t believe what they have done to me
I don’t believe in this reality

Theres an empty, hollow prison on an island alone
Left to wither until conquered
When the diamonds turn gold
You’re having gasoline for water
I say theres nothing wrong
In being way to convoluted
To keep things in their norm

I can’t ignore the hateful delight
Of my inner demons as they come alive
I can’t ignore the hateful delight
Of my inner demons as they come alive

Through cryptic astrology
I don’t believe there would be anything left for me
I don’t believe what they have done to me
I don’t believe this is reality

Cryptic astrology
There’s nothing left of me
What they have done to me
This is reality

Gasoline for water
I say theres nothing wrong
In being way too convoluted
To keep things in their norm
Have you seen the scene thats too obscene
To ever be played
I bet you felt a rush of endorphines
As they screamed for help

In the morning, half past eight
I look around, I look at her
She looks at me
We won’t remember
The past few days
The things we‘ve done to
Compensate for our mistakes

Whatever‘s left doesn’t feel right
What can I say
You’re feeling down im getting high

Dancing prisms around our eyes
Conversations without any spoken lines
Blurred visions of a time
That once will be, it never was a piece of mine

Whatever’s left doesn’t feel right
What can I say
You‘re feeling down im getting high
What can I say
You keep yourself inside a box
What can I say
It startles me when I fall asleep
I’m a heart attack maniac

Whatevers left doesn’t feel right
Youre feeling down I’m getting high
Whatevers left doesn’t feel right
Youre feeling down I’m getting high

Whatever’s left doesn’t feel right
What can I say
You‘re feeling down im getting high
What can I say
You keep yourself inside a box
What can I say
It startles me when I fall asleep
I’m a heart attack maniac

Heart attack, heart attack
I’m a heart attack maniac
Heart attack, heart attack
Yeah I’m a heart attack maniac

Stuck inside a cage of air
Feels like winter
On the run from my despair
Now the fog is getting thinner
Good rain clears the air
I third guess my every move
A roaring tempest brings despair
Oh what, what an exaggerated mood

I’m still waiting for you
To stop waiting for me
It’s been long overdue
You finally start to breathe
I’m on the way to my heart
Waiting for you to leave
To tell you the truth
I never wished you to see

I should have known better
It shouldn’t matter to me at all
I should have known better
From before

Get me out get me some air
I can’t see the truth
A roaring tempest brings despair
Oh what, what an exaggerated mood

I’m still waiting for you
To stop waiting for me
It’s been long overdue
You finally start to breathe
I’m on the way to my heart
Waiting for you to leave
To tell you the truth
I never wished you to see

I should have known better
It shouldn’t matter to me at all
I should have know better
From before

I should have known better
It shouldn’t matter to me at all
I should have known better
From before
I should have known better
It shouldn’t matter to me at all
I should have known better
From before

I’ve been having converstions
With my box of medication
Overthinking lines of text
About steps I’ve never taken
I wear my heart out on my sleeves
Out for everyone to see
Overtuned emotions think I’m wrong
They are but a notion to you
To you

We all have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteem
I have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteem
But someone else’s self esteem
Ain’t right for me

Come to my gig on judgement day
Or don’t nobody really cares
Watch me fall from far away
You tell your friends it’s just a phase
Did you actually expect
I’d live a life of lies for you
I can be an asshole too

We all have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteemI have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteem
But someone else’s self esteem
Ain’t right for me

I’ve been having converstions
with my box of medication
Overthinking lines of text
About steps I’ve never taken
I wear my heart out on my sleeves
Out for everyone to see
Overtuned emotions think I’m wrong
They are but a notion to you

We all have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteem
I have a soundtrack
Some days even have a theme
Here I am living my ass off
Working on someone else’s self esteem
On someone else’s self esteem

Keep it close to miles away
With a smile upon your face
My past lives used to feel the same
We could never go back to being mundane

I feel it in my ribcage
Looking down the deep end
As I start to regret
The wonder starts to repent
I feel it in my ribcage
Feel it in my Ribcage
Feel it in my Ribcage
Now

I have wasted too much time
To be bleeding from a knife wound to my mind
I will bleed out of my eyes
Tonight, the sky will come alight

I feel it in my ribcage
Looking down the deep end
As I start to regret
The wonder starts to repent
I feel it in my ribcage
Feel it in my Ribcage
Feel it in my Ribcage
Now

I have wasted too much time
To be bleeding from a knife wound to my mind
I will bleed out of my eyes
Tonight, the sky will come alight

When my brain goes into dark mode
I finally come to face
My greatest fears
Could they be what back then I wished for
When he scissors win against stone
Chiseled to a marionette
Resembling old regrets
Will I be my own cute little scapegoat

I told you anyone can be what or who they want to be
But that doesn’t count for me

The times have changed, I ran away
binary states, I wished away
Feelings of uncertainty
Feelings I dont want to feel
The days I’m locked away
In my own domain, I guess that I’m to blame
For feeling something out of the ordinary
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel

First thing after I wake up
I wonder is this the me I want to be
Is this who I want to spend my life next to
In the evening when it’s all dark
Will I be an overtone to my own songs
Will I be my own cute little scapegoat

I told you anyone can be what or who they want to be
But that doesn’t count for me

The times have changed, I ran away
binary states, I wished away
Feelings of uncertainty
Feelings I dont want to feel
The days I’m locked away
In my own domain, I guess that I’m to blame
For feeling something out of the ordinary
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel


I don’t wanna be, I dont wanna be
I don’t know who I wanna be
I don’t wanna be, I dont wanna be
I don’t know who I wanna be
I don’t wanna be, I dont wanna be
I don’t know who I wanna be
I don’t wanna be, I dont wanna be
I don’t know what I wanna

Change, I run away
binary states, I wish away
Feelings of uncertainty
Feelings I don’t want to feel
The days I’m locked away
In my own domain, I guess that I’m to blame
For feeling something out of the ordinary
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel
Feelings I don’t want to feel

If there’s a couple billion people
Would you be the only one
To have their flight mode disabled
And actually respond
When I send my SOS I shouldn’t expect
To hear anything
But when you read my SOS
Please write back
Please write back

I like to waste my time
Staring at the walls pretending I didn’t like
How we took care
Of each other but I guess that was a different time

If there’s a couple billion people
how come you’re the only one
To have their flight mode disabled
And actually respond
When I send my SOS I shouldn’t expect
To hear anything
When you read my SOS
Please write back
Please write back

I hate how we couldn’t talk
For the better part of half a decade
I wish I was sure
You’d even come back around to see me

If there’s a couple billion people
How come you’re the only one
To have their flight mode disabled
And actually respond
When I sent my SOS I didn’t expect
To hear anything
You read my SOS and you wrote back
To save my life

If there’s a couple billion people
I could’ve been your only one
To have their flight mode disabled

So why did you leave
In the span of a single night
You didn’t even leave behind
A way to tell me all the reasons why
You decided to go instead
What’s left is a lonely mess
There’s no need for this hole in my chest
You could’ve just sent an SOS
You could’ve just sent an SOS

I’d waste my life on you
Waste my life on you

You, you want St. Valentine’s in June
You, forgot St. Valentine’s needs two

As the seasons crumble, start to fall
Death awaits you at the door
A slip of meaning in a void
Why does it matter at all?

You, you want St. Valentine’s in June
You, forgot St. Valentine’s needs two

How do you ignore
The state of this emergency
If my life’s a currency
Then why would I save my life
when I can waste it on you?

As the seasons crumble, start to fall
Death awaits you at the door
A slip of meaning in a void
Why does it matter at all?

How do you ignore
The state of this emergency
If my life’s a currency
Then why would I save my life
When I can waste it on you?

There’s more to a weekend than sleeping in
I wonder what’s this all about
I don’t understand
How you could see me as your godsent
Here to stay without complaint
But forever never happened

You once said life is full of hard decisions
Yet chosing me in retrospective was quite easy
I never thought you would ever really listen
You believe in casting curses for a blessing
Your shooting stars aligned to show what we were missing
The expections you had set were unrealistic

There’s more to a weekend than sleeping in
I wonder what’s this all about
No, I don’t understand
How you could see me as your godsent
Here to stay without complaint
But forever never happened
It didn’t even cross my mind
Ah-ah, oh-o-oh
Didn’t even cross my mind
A-ah, Oh-o-oh-oh

Four times a year I ask myself a silly question
Wondering might this be seasonal depression
Although it never really leaves any impression
Do you remember all the sweaters we took hostage
As a passive way to say “I’m who you’re stuck with”
Kind of messed up how we couldn’t keep that promise

Do you remember that one time
I asked you “Hey, baby
Could you please take your tits off my ukulele”
I guess not everyone can be
A normal fucking guy like me

There’s more to a weekend
Than sleeping in
I wonder what’s this all about
No, I don’t understand
How you could see me as your godsent
Here to stay without complaint
But forever never happened
It didn’t even cross my mind
Ah-ah, oh-o-oh
Didn’t even cross my mind
Ah-ah, oh-o-oh-oh

Do you remember that one time
I asked you “Hey, baby
Could you please take your tits off my ukulele”
I guess not everyone can be
A normal fucking guy like me
A normal fucking guy like me

When i saw you standing in the cold
Mere steps away from background noise
Your bloodred stare so beautiful
”Is this awkward for you?”
”You you wanna be alone?”
”Could I maybe ask you for the digits to your phone?”

I think I like all the ways you contradict me
How you stutter when you talk
Makes me feel so at ease
I don’t know you but please
Show me what’s underneath
Let me slip into your sheets
Yet I don’t even know your name

I don’t know your name
I don’t know your name
I don’t know your name

How many times have i realised for the first time
Every ending’s gotta stop
But I’d do it again
Let the shit hit the fan
Eventually make amends
Then pretend it was planned

I’ve been trying to figure you out
I’ve been trying to figure you out
I’ve been trying to figure you out
Trying to figure, trying to figure,
I’m trying to figure you out
I’m still trying to figure you out
Before my conscience drags me down

Yet I don’t even know your name
I don’t even know you name
I don’t know your name
I don’t even know your name

When i saw you standing in the cold
Mere steps away from background noise
Your bloodred stare so beautiful
”Is this awkward for you?”
”Do you wanna be alone?”
”Could I maybe ask you for the digits to your phone?”

I like to keep my things colourcoded
So everyone can see
How I’m losing focus
When I mix up blue and green
You were green-ish poison
I was your red-ish novocaine
Now I’m losing focus
I’d rather be enough than ever be me

You are the drug I am leaving
You are the drug I became addicted to

You’re bleeding, you’re bleeding
You’re bleeding while I’m headed for the door
You’re screaming, You’re screaming
You’re screaming but I can’t hear you no more
I got too caught up in my head
Now I hate myself for that
I think I found a reason to move on
I’ve never felt this good before

The other day I was dreaming of you
I seek for reason in my tunes
Maybe they can point to anything but
The self hatred I had for you
You made me feel like
I was living your life on top of mine
You would stop my heartbeat
To ensure you feel alright

You are the drug I am leaving
You are the drug I became addicted to

You’re bleeding, you’re bleeding
You’re bleeding while I’m headed for the door
You’re screaming, you’re screaming
You’re screaming, but I can’t hear you no more
I got too caught up In my head
Now I hate myself for that
I think I found a reason to move on
I’ve never felt this good before

Tuning issues sharpening my teeth
Tuning issues flattening my speech
Tuning issues messing up my key
Tuning issues sharpening my teeth
Tuning issues flattening my speech
Tuning issues messing up my key

You’re bleeding, you’re bleeding
You’re bleeding while I’m headed for the door
You’re screaming, you’re screaming
You’re screaming, but I can’t hear you no more
I gottoo caught up In my head
Now I hate myself for that
I think I found a reason to move on
I’ve never felt this good before

You’ve got eyes
That are watching you
You are all by yourself
You’ve got fears
Holding onto you
You are all by yourself

When your tongue turns to gold
All the mystery is gone
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile
When your words go blank
Your flesh starts to mold
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile

You’ve got strings
Still attached you
You are all by yourself
There are bugs
Feeding off of you
Even when you think
You are all by yourself

When your tongue turns to gold
All the mystery is gone
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile
When your words go blank
Your flesh starts to mold
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile

When your tongue turns to gold
All the mystery is gone
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile
When your words go blank
Your flesh starts to mold
Keep your head held high
Don’t forget to wave and smile

When your tongue turns gold
All the mystery’s gone
Keep your head held high
Wave and smile
When your words go blank
Your flesh starts to mold
Keep your head held high
Wave and smile

Your forever came to soon
Relayed from one pulse to the next
You think you’re clever with that iodine
Piled up on your head
Never ever came too soon
A binary state has been flipped
You’re so clever with that cyanide
Coated around your lips

I thought I’d miss hanging out in your rainwater puddle
I’d miss seeing you the way that you wanted
I’d miss seeing the red on your cheeks in the summertime
But it seems to me you’d rather break
Your word than to trace back and cut your losses
The face you’d put on to get what you want and
Your lazy runaway excuse to have a better time
Is your problem not mine
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da

Your teddy bear is love deprived
It listens but you never care
You’re out of sight not out of mind
Not a word to spare
What’s the use of coming by
To watch you slam the door
This is tragedy in overdrive
But i guess it’s time


I thought I’d miss hanging out in your rainwater puddle
I’d miss seeing you the way that you wanted
I’d miss seeing the red on your cheeks in the summertime
But it seems to me you’d rather break
Your word than to trace back and cut your losses
The face you‘d put on to get what you want and
Your lazy runaway excuse to have a better time
But that’s your problem not mine
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da


I thought I’d lose all I have all I ever wanted
I gave you my all you took it for granted
How you‘d break your own bones to harden mine
Now the rain is pouring
Down on the shirt I bought you last Christmas
Wrapped around your neck as your grandiose exit
You’re so keen to pretend the sun never shines
But that‘s your problem not mine
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da
It’s your problem not mine
Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da

You have it all
Sins to atone
I won’t ever, ever, ever let you go
In freezing cold
You’re burning out
Please don’t ever, ever, ever let me go

In reckless hope
You overdose
On whatever, ever, ever fills the void
How could you know
It was foolsgold
You’re left to wonder wether weather
Makes you wither for forever

In the night
You tell me you are fine
The rain is pouring
I can see it in your eyes
The way you hurt inside
Your sweat tells stories

Inside your arms
I feel so warm
Please don’t ever, ever, ever let me go
Stockholm syndrome
from being alone
I won’t ever, ever, ever let you go

In reckless hopeYou overdoseOn whatever, ever, ever fills the voidHow could you knowIt was foolsgoldYou’re left to wonder wether weatherMakes you wither for forever

In the night
You tell me you are fine
The rain is pouring
I can see it in your eyes
The way you hurt inside
Your sweat tells stories

There’s dark clouds inside your brain
You can’t really explain
Should I just ignore ‘em
For the time you wish away
What makes you stay awake
Until morning

Your sweat tells stories
Your sweat tells stories

Then you ask me
Is it wrong
You tell me something nobody knows
Why would it be
Now come on
Tell me what’s wrong
You ask me what to do
Well, how the hell am I supposed to know
How I can be
Of any use to you
Of any use to you

When wake up in the night
You tell me you are fine
The rain is pouring
I can see it in your eyes
The way you hurt inside
Your sweat tells stories

There’s dark clouds inside your brain
You can’t really explain
Should I just ignore ‘em
For the time you wish away
What makes you stay awake
Until morning

Your sweat tells stories
Your sweat tells stories